to Pemberley

2009-09-27T15:50:00.009-04:00

http://codexgigas.tumblr.com/

temporarily switched to tumblr.

see you there.

2009-09-16T20:02:00.006-04:00

Bermuda Triangle

2009-09-10T21:59:00.007-04:00

my first little film. I feel so nostalgic. can hardly believe it was the first and yet the last one I've ever done. sometimes I really want to do films.

2009-09-08T19:57:00.005-04:00

"That is what is wrong with cold people. Not that they have ice in their souls - we all have a bit of that - but that they insist their every word and deed mirror that ice. They never learn the beauty or value of gesture. The emotional necessity. For them, it is all honesty before kindness, truth before art. Love is art, not truth. It’s like painting scenery."

/Lorrie Moore, What is Seized

2009-09-07T15:29:00.001-04:00

SCHOOL TOMORROW

2009-09-06T00:23:00.002-04:00

source

2009-09-03T23:51:00.003-04:00

"How do you say farewell to camels that have crossed a desert with you? I found no right way except to take them for one last swim in the ocean before leaving them with gentle friends."- Robyn Davidson

2009-09-02T18:30:00.001-04:00

the ninth gate

you used to say to me

strange places

2009-09-02T18:27:00.002-04:00

"sabastian"

i like this word

2009-09-02T17:57:00.004-04:00

the making of

perfect triangles

2009-08-31T18:20:00.003-04:00

2009-08-30T17:37:00.001-04:00

"I wasn't confident enough to be adventurous by myself. Intrepid explorers often come from a socially privileged background; the rest of us have to learn how to make our way in strange places step by nervous step."

/Nuala O'Faolain

2009-08-30T15:01:00.000-04:00

i am nervous, nervous about the coming orientation

source

2009-08-30T15:00:00.000-04:00

A woman may very well form a friendship with a man, but for this to endure, it must be assisted by a little physical antipathy.

— Friedrich Nietzsche

2009-08-30T12:43:00.000-04:00

source

2009-08-15T22:29:00.000-04:00

source

2009-08-13T23:25:00.000-04:00

"i want to earn enough money i can get away from everyone"

/There will be Blood

me too.

2009-08-13T00:22:00.000-04:00

and the summer ends in breeze, in grass-fields;

in piles of second-hand magazines, in broken guitar-strings;

in sleepless nights, in afternoon reads, in Randy Bachman's Vinyl Tap in the evenings.

2009-08-12T16:50:00.000-04:00

do not you want to be there after school

every afternoon?

i do.

2009-08-09T21:44:00.001-04:00

2009-08-06T17:08:00.000-04:00

2009-08-05T00:12:00.001-04:00

and i walk around, around and

around and

around..

2009-08-03T21:47:00.000-04:00

2009-07-31T17:06:00.000-04:00

tis my new home.

2009-07-26T22:35:00.000-04:00

days with my father

by Phillip Toledano

2009-07-24T21:35:00.000-04:00

2009-06-28T02:16:00.000-04:00

2009-06-21T13:48:00.000-04:00

2009-06-18T03:49:00.000-04:00

No more high school.

2009-06-13T17:39:00.000-04:00

2009-06-01T21:22:00.000-04:00

2009-05-27T22:52:00.000-04:00

How to bake a Boterkoek?

1 and 1/3 of flour

1/2 of brown sugar

1/3 pound of butter

perhaps some sliced almonds

400 degrees

20 minutes

2009-05-20T21:11:00.001-04:00

2009-05-19T22:13:00.000-04:00

"Ma, what's that fellow?"

"Why, that's a ho-bo."

"Ma, I want to be a ho-bo someday."

"Shet your mouth, that's not for the like of the Hazards."

2009-05-18T21:45:00.000-04:00

2009-05-14T23:16:00.000-04:00

best friends “Where did you get all these words?” “Oh, it’s just because of studying for that stupid test my dad wants me to take…” “I thought you weren’t going to take that test.” “Yeah, well… My dad already paid for it, and he’s really been pestering me and everything… It’s a total drag…” “You are such a fucking liar.” “I’m not lying, I just…” “You tell me every stupid detail of your life but you don’t even mention that you’re studying for this test?” “That’s because you’re acting like such a creep about it.. I’m only taking a stupid test!” “Maybe I’m just sick of putting more into this friendship than I get out of it…” “What the fuck are you talking about!?” “Like how come I’m always the one who had to call you? You never call me…” “You’re out of your mind! I called you today! Practically everything you’ve ever done is because of me! I feel like I practically have to tell you what to do!” “Oh, because you’re so much more interesting and so much smarter than me…” “Well if I’m such a jerk why do you hang out with me?” “Who knows…” “Look, why are you so freaked out? Because of the one percent chance that I might possibly go to college?!” No, because you’re acting so weird about it! What is it, some big secret?! It’s like you’re trying to sneak away or something…” “That’s just because you’re acting so weird!” “Look, just forget it!” “So, after the test is over how long do you have to decide?” “About two seconds… I take the test one week, find out the next week and then it’s like boom, I have to immediately go…” “How would you get there?” “I dunno… Drive…” “…Maybe I shouldn’t go with you…” “It’s kind of sick to follow you like that… God, it’s really pretty sad when you think about it…” “Yeah, I don’t exactly know what to think about it… It all seems kind of unhealthy…” “Yeah, but then again if we were separated it might be so horrible… I guess it is kind of creepy to think of us acting like this when we’re thirty…” “That’s the thing… I mean, really we’re just like teenage friends… It’s not like we’re married or something… I mean, we can always be friends… We don’t have to live together and stuff…” “God…” “You know what I mean…” “Yeah, but in a way I don’t see anything wrong with us always staying together…”

2009-04-26T16:00:00.000-04:00

yes ma'am

i saved a bird

sunday mornings

neighborhoods(strange)

2009-04-26T01:31:00.000-04:00

"I am in general a very pessimistic person with an optimistic, day-to-day take on things. The bare facts of life are utterly terrifying. And yet, one can laugh. Indeed, one has to laugh precisely because of the darkness: the nervous laughter of the trenches."

/Alain de Botton

2009-04-26T01:06:00.000-04:00

source

2009-04-20T22:49:00.000-04:00

"A notorious inability to express emotions makes human beings the only animals capable of suicide."

/Alain de Botton

2009-04-19T00:21:00.000-04:00

silly lilly, funny bunny.

how lonely are you?

2009-04-16T19:02:00.000-04:00

source

2009-04-13T22:35:00.000-04:00

SUMMER

HAS COME!

2009-03-29T21:53:00.001-04:00

"I can smell the sea air. The rest of my time I’m going to spend on the sea. And when I die, I’m going to die on the sea. You know what I shall die of? [She plucks a grape] I shall die of eating an unwashed grape one day out on the ocean. And I’ll be buried at sea sewn up in a clean white sack and dropped overboard- at noon- in the blaze of summer- and into an ocean as blue as my first lover’s eyes!"

/Blanche DuBois from A Streetcar named Desire

2009-03-23T22:57:00.000-04:00

2009-03-05T15:38:00.000-05:00

source

2009-02-13T21:55:00.000-05:00

2009-02-03T23:33:00.000-05:00

/Robert Kerouac The Americans

2009-01-31T21:28:00.000-05:00

"I didn't know who I was-- I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd ever seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds."
/Jack Kerouac

a typical roundtrip

2009-01-27T22:24:00.000-05:00

I like bus rides.

Their thoughts followed a lady who was getting off the bus.

A tourist reassuring herself of the picture quality.

a weekend in Montreal

2009-01-26T23:22:00.001-05:00

The larger it is, only more strangers there are.

The announcement in the metro is and only in French.
There was an old couple who ran all the way upstairs to tell me that the direction they have given me was incorrect. I was so appalled. And ashamed when I watched him running clumsily back to his wife not because of the quality in their nature, but because I realized how little I would care for a stranger whom I'd meet only once in my life.

He was at work being curious about a quarrel between two other men. The two troubled men were actually captured in the next picture.

I chose to go on the tour again to past my time before the cinema presentation started. This Catrina was embarrassed when she couldn't fit all of us into a lift.

There were ten people in the first tour that morning, excluding the student-guide 'Dan'. He revealed at some point that he had been in NSCAD before he transferred to Concordia. He wore a pair of thick glasses like my dad's in the 80s, spoke and walked slowly, and dressed like one of those skateboarders.

Checking out the facilities. I wonder why they couldn't overcome the difficulty of having rooms with expensive equipments opened on open house day.

I tried to explore the city on foot that early morning, but the weather prevented me from doing so after less than 30min so I decided to head back. And this is when I was making my way back to the hotel while there was a circle of protesters clapping and making themselves heard in front of mcgill.

2 days in Halifax

2009-01-23T23:04:00.000-05:00

The first night I arrived with the longing for the first ever adventure of staying in a hostel. In the taxi, close to destination, after desperately admitting the city being reputably safe in North America and carefully trying not to scare the shit out of me, the driver politely and slightly evoked the fact that my hostel happened to be on the edge of the most dangerous part of the city, and I shall be careful.
By the time we arrived their office hour has run out and the whole building- more like a ghetto- has gone dark. First floor contained a cafe, a relatively cozy wireless livingroom and some dorm rooms. Second floor- the top floor- contained two hedious, small yet rather clean bathrooms, and a few other bedrooms. The bathroom I glanced at and was convinced I wouldn't take showers inside. My bedroom has a very high ceiling, an area of approximately 2x3.5m, and a narrow unreachable window. It immediately came to my mind the image of the religious-use secret place from the Da Vinci Code. Several young male teens were hanging out in the livingroom, looking casual and not too hostile. The old man who owned a huge mustache as well as the hostel had once been a NSCAD student, and the young girl who asisted was a current student there. Situation came to be very clear that I had to forget the glorious adventure. So I called a taxi and moved to the hotel in the background of this picture, the Prince George Hotel.

This picture was taken before my visiting the Gallery of Nova Scotia. I have had no intention to check out the gallery, but a few seconds after I walked past the building I realized I just past a gallery. And when I came out of the gallery, I had a red sticker just like the ones in this picture. The gallery has an interior of better atmosphere than that of Vancouver Art Gallery. The unfortunate would be that because of the flood they had taken down a show named Flight Dreams.

You really won't get to see the potentious expression on these faces. I sensed from this community that when you live without caring too much about being known, judged or compared, you are much released and free-spirit.

If not mistaken he was playing something from Amelie. I have to say it was one of the most wonderful morning scenes I've encountered in Canada.

This indicates very well how small the city is.

She was doing some very delicate work.

The school runs 24 hours a day for students.

Their taxis can arrive within seconds whenever unless it's rainy.

From 3rd year on you can request for a private studio space like this.

The Dawson Print Shop.

2009-01-04T12:46:00.000-05:00

Ok.

2009-01-02T14:53:00.000-05:00

‘I don’t actually believe there’s such a thing as men and women. When I was a kid, every day people asked, “Are you a boy or a girl?” I was under the impression that it was cooler to be like that rather than male or female. And then I made other people believe that, as well.’

'People want to escape from who they are, but when they have to get jobs, they have to be male or female. It has to be clear. A lot of men want to be women, or vice versa.’ Who does she think gets the better deal? ‘I don’t know. I think masculine values are more prominent. But just because someone gets a good deal, are they going to be happy? No.’

‘I like this compilation because it’s raw; it’s not saying anything, it’s not very serious. We’re a bit suspicious of mainstream culture. I like things to be basic, I like to just sit in my room and create music.' Because that would be the kiss of death? ‘No, not the kiss of death – I just don’t want to have to reinvent myself next month.’

‘Obviously I have to wear a moustache because otherwise it would look like it's meant to be a strip show.’ What's your concept of performance? ‘To be honest I haven't thought about it much, there's no concept, it's just music.’

2009-01-01T16:54:00.001-05:00

Enlarge the photograph and immediately your eyes stop on the tiny bits of woolen things on his sweater, on a second thought, you think that yet he looks perfectly calm and intelligent in the photograph. At night I read the book he wrote when he was 23.

2008-12-29T03:06:00.000-05:00

"Let's write a swimming pool."
/Paul McCartney

2008-12-27T19:57:00.000-05:00

四月（一九九○年）底在西安下了飞机，站在外面那大广场上发呆，想，贾平凹就住在这个城市里，心里有着一份巨大的茫然，抽了几支烟，在冷空气中看烟慢慢散去，尔后我走了，若有所失的一种举步。
/三毛

2008-12-19T21:04:00.001-05:00

2008-12-19T01:37:00.000-05:00

2008-12-17T22:06:00.000-05:00

2008-12-16T20:49:00.000-05:00

days were absolute ennui and emptiness.

2008-12-14T21:24:00.000-05:00

2008-12-13T00:00:00.000-05:00

A: "Uh, I'm very shallow and empty and I have no ideas and nothing interesting to say."
B: "And I'm exactly the same way."
C: "I see. Wow. That's very interesting. So you've managed to work out something?"

2008-12-03T23:43:00.001-05:00

a 2006 work- it reminds me of such innocent yet eternally childish days in my old high school

2008-12-01T01:00:00.001-05:00

Jeremiah de Saint-Amour loved life with a senseless passion, he loved the sea and love, he loved his dog and her, and as the date approached he had gradually succumbed to despair as if his death had been not his own decision but an inexorable destiny.

2008-11-30T03:44:00.001-05:00

the dream that I see don't kill it

2008-11-05T00:32:00.000-05:00

2008-11-04T01:43:00.000-05:00

i lost this camera to a transit bus the fourteenth day since i've made the purchase. i tried everything i could think of to get it back, i phoned the police and the transit company, i went back to every possible stop, i put up posters, i asked the drivers, i posted a notice in the newspaper. but three days passed and i knew i wouldn't see it anymore.

2008-10-24T01:53:00.001-04:00

i sometimes imagined... they came to this place, sat on the bench, and smoked cigarettes. the smell of gas filled up the dark cool air.

2008-10-21T22:35:00.001-04:00

2008-10-15T21:43:00.000-04:00

the dream that I see don't kill it

2008-10-15T01:54:00.000-04:00

/Hedi Slimane

2008-10-11T00:32:00.001-04:00

I will never know you anymore

2008-10-03T17:18:00.000-04:00

07+08
had a pleasure self-printing photos from a darkroom

2008-10-02T20:01:00.000-04:00

/dad

2008-09-29T22:28:00.000-04:00

2008-06-07T02:17:00.000-04:00

梅花牌运动服,海鸥相机,乐凯胶卷,永久自行车,凤凰自行车,回力胶鞋,飞跃胶鞋,双星运动鞋,万紫千红润肤脂,郁美净,蜂花洗发精,健力宝,大白兔奶糖,小白兔儿童牙膏,英雄钢笔,鸵鸟墨水,北京派暖水瓶内胆...

2008-02-27T03:34:00.000-05:00

近来两天把睡眠分成了两段.回家就倒下睡去了,两三个小时,起来,洗澡,继而再睡去.在洗澡与再睡去之间,是一段很私人且静谧的时间.天黑以后.天黑以后.看过那本书吗?我还记得他写的城市蠕动.在东京抑或纽约或多或少能感受这种巨型机器的效果,可我独自一人在这个时段里,在这个地方,没有动静.窗以外的空间只剩黑暗,一盏路灯平稳地被供着电.当我也静止不动,摒气观察着空气.一个方包型的公车于此时驰骋而去.又恢复原来.世界的人口少了7/8,剩许的仅一小部分个体在凝视着天黑以后的地球.这个时段里,无须社交,无须现实,无须物质.简单而黏稠的流动的时间.

门小雷说

2008-02-12T21:11:00.000-05:00

開學不久的一天，翟錦文老師叫每個同學寫下一道問題，不記名，然後交給他。幾天後，錦文讀出了我的問題，他說這個問題非常好，我問的是：「假若錯過了一些非常壯觀美麗又難得的東西，而沒有拍下來，我該怎樣面對那遺憾的感覺？」

翟錦文說：「做人應該宏觀一點，如果有心的話，必定可以再遇上錯過了的東西，假若真是一生也不可能再遇上，就把它永遠記在心裡，那才是最美的。」

從此，我就覺得不需要有遺憾，也不需要留戀了。