"Let's write a swimming pool."
/Paul McCartney

四月（一九九○年）底在西安下了飞机，站在外面那大广场上发呆，想，贾平凹就住在这个城市里，心里有着一份巨大的茫然，抽了几支烟，在冷空气中看烟慢慢散去，尔后我走了，若有所失的一种举步。
/三毛

days were absolute ennui and emptiness.

A: "Uh, I'm very shallow and empty and I have no ideas and nothing interesting to say."
B: "And I'm exactly the same way."
C: "I see. Wow. That's very interesting. So you've managed to work out something?"

a 2006 work- it reminds me of such innocent yet eternally childish days in my old high school

Jeremiah de Saint-Amour loved life with a senseless passion, he loved the sea and love, he loved his dog and her, and as the date approached he had gradually succumbed to despair as if his death had been not his own decision but an inexorable destiny.

the dream that I see don't kill it

i lost this camera to a transit bus the fourteenth day since i've made the purchase. i tried everything i could think of to get it back, i phoned the police and the transit company, i went back to every possible stop, i put up posters, i asked the drivers, i posted a notice in the newspaper. but three days passed and i knew i wouldn't see it anymore.

i sometimes imagined... they came to this place, sat on the bench, and smoked cigarettes. the smell of gas filled up the dark cool air.

the dream that I see don't kill it

the dream that I see don't kill it

the dream that I see don't kill it

/Hedi Slimane

I will never know you anymore

07+08
had a pleasure self-printing photos from a darkroom

/dad

梅花牌运动服,海鸥相机,乐凯胶卷,永久自行车,凤凰自行车,回力胶鞋,飞跃胶鞋,双星运动鞋,万紫千红润肤脂,郁美净,蜂花洗发精,健力宝,大白兔奶糖,小白兔儿童牙膏,英雄钢笔,鸵鸟墨水,北京派暖水瓶内胆...

近来两天把睡眠分成了两段.回家就倒下睡去了,两三个小时,起来,洗澡,继而再睡去.在洗澡与再睡去之间,是一段很私人且静谧的时间.天黑以后.天黑以后.看过那本书吗?我还记得他写的城市蠕动.在东京抑或纽约或多或少能感受这种巨型机器的效果,可我独自一人在这个时段里,在这个地方,没有动静.窗以外的空间只剩黑暗,一盏路灯平稳地被供着电.当我也静止不动,摒气观察着空气.一个方包型的公车于此时驰骋而去.又恢复原来.世界的人口少了7/8,剩许的仅一小部分个体在凝视着天黑以后的地球.这个时段里,无须社交,无须现实,无须物质.简单而黏稠的流动的时间.

门小雷说

開學不久的一天，翟錦文老師叫每個同學寫下一道問題，不記名，然後交給他。幾天後，錦文讀出了我的問題，他說這個問題非常好，我問的是：「假若錯過了一些非常壯觀美麗又難得的東西，而沒有拍下來，我該怎樣面對那遺憾的感覺？」

翟錦文說：「做人應該宏觀一點，如果有心的話，必定可以再遇上錯過了的東西，假若真是一生也不可能再遇上，就把它永遠記在心裡，那才是最美的。」

從此，我就覺得不需要有遺憾，也不需要留戀了。